I have felt every single second of my pain of losing Kenneth. That has been torture. This is hard. It’s been hard. I work on myself each and every day and try to find a reason to put one foot in front of the other to move forward. Some days it’s easy, some days it’s not too bad and some days I find it impossible. That’s just the way it is. It’s changed over the last 6 years but I still struggle. I always will and that is because I will not ever be over losing my son. I will never be over him not being in my life. I will never be over not watching him grow up. I will never be over not being the family that we were supposed to be.